My family is saying farewell to my beloved Aunt Linda today. I am unable to make the trip to Ohio to be there. This deepens the pain.
It is frustrating living so far from family. We live in constant fear that every time we say goodbye to a loved one that is might be our last (even when we live in the same home). We never want to be left alone. In reality of fear and sense of loss are selfish emotions. Death is a painful reminder of missed opportunities and the sense of failure.
I have to celebrate my aunt’s life somewhat alone today. My wife and children have not had the opportunities to spend the time with her that I have had.
Linda was always cheerful. There are so many memories. Having been a teacher, I expect the funeral will be attended by several generations of former students whose lives have been positively affected by my Aunt. She was that teacher that everyone loved. She cared deeply for every student and showed me how teaching can be a calling.
I wish I had just one more memory. I wish that I had called just one more time. Alas, those opportunities were missed.
She leaves behind her husband, Uncle Bob, and son, Bobby (who is much too old for me to be calling him “Bobby” still, as well as grandchildren, siblings, cousins, nieces, and other family and friends. Moreover, she leaves memories that cannot be taken away.
We will always miss an opportunity for one more goodbye to the ones we love. That is life. That is love. The best we can do is to grab the opportunities that we can.
I miss you Aunt Linda!
Carpe momento!